Out of the most disgusting moments, I pen down my expressions to have a sound relief… also there’s a huge list of the people that need to be attached here for my inspirations. but let me have a question should I have an inspiration?? Can’t there be myself listed here!! Oh damn why wasn’t I considered anywhere in my life? Thru out my schooling or inter stuff where this relates…? I could find an answer right next to this moment and here it comes deep down from my heart….
I was always a loner (still), always didn’t had friends (not now any more ok?) Now my mind say, ask the lecture how could he derive that so damn equation that lasts for pages….(hope this makes u a li’l bit boring, read though) I make myself restricted as he just teaches what he has learnt right in the morning n delivers that!!! But somewhere inside this guy has some talent inside n why can’t he make interesting? Chalo I can’t say this anymore as it leads to my ignorance….! Screw this education system (this might be my expression (also equation) after reading 5.some one), even there couldn’t be some practical stuff that keeps going. Although there are labs, who asks us to cope us with the present trend? They’re least bothered and ask us to copy us the stuff that our seniors do, the damn projects. Let me once again have a look (aur thoda rewind),can’t I had got my ass seated in some deemed univ? now again my mind strikes back ,this is destiny, aren’t there successful people coming out of my college(even the worst colleges!!).
From the ages there is something called ethics…code of conduct or whatever that might be in accordance related to the family and schooling. I hope why amn’t I teachd how to study? Why can’t I question my kindergarten teachers?? But the bottom line I can conclude is that I have to blame myself for not being myself and going to the stuff that I can do…! Mani Bacha there can be life beyond every point but where’s this goddamn thing? Plz God save me!!
รจ This thing keeps going on and the reason is that this is out of heart, no commercial business related!!
